Do Not Hide From God

I’ve often found that some of the most difficult times to turn to the Lord occur right after I sin against Him.  I’ll choose to rebel against Him and find myself running from Him afterwards, my heart full of fear.  I’ll politely refuse when people ask me to pray, or I’ll avoid my quiet times, simply because the infraction against Him is so fresh.  I convince myself that God doesn’t want to face me at that point… I think “maybe after a few days, when the stain has faded somewhat, I can come to Him.  But certainly God doesn’t want to see me now, not after what I’ve done,”

Recently, though, God reminded me of Genesis 3:8-10:

And they heard the sound of the LORD God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God among the trees of the garden.  But the LORD God called to the man and said to him, “Where are you?”  And he said, “I heard the sound of you in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked, and I hid myself.”

When Adam and Eve sinned against God, they felt the need to hide, as I often do.  But God was still looking and calling out for them.  He still sought them, even though they had been tainted with sin.  They hid in shame and in fear.  When I sin, I often find myself acting the same way as Adam and Eve, instead of living out what Scripture reminds us of:  “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.  For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love” (1 John 4:18).

In light of Scripture, I am reminded that when I sin against God, there is no need to hide in fear.  Because of the cross of Jesus Christ that fully paid for the punishment of my sin, I may approach His throne of grace with boldness (Hebrews 4:16).  I may turn to God in my time of brokenness, trusting in His grace through Christ’s sacrifice (Psalm 51:16-17).  Even if there is discipline, it brings me joy since I know that God is treating me as a son (Hebrews 12:7).

Therefore, even though we may be tempted to run from God when we sin against Him, we must realize that God’s desire is for us to draw close to Him (James 4:8).  Let us not be afraid to turn to God in our need.  His sacrifice paid for our sins, and He offers us reconciliation and freedom from fear.

“From whence this fear and unbelief, since God my Father, put to grief His spotless Son for me?  Can he, the righteous judge of men, condemn me for that debt of sin, Which, Lord, was charged on Thee?” …  “Turn, then, my soul, unto thy rest: The merits of thy Great High Priest speak peace and liberty: Trust in His efficacious blood, nor fear thy banishment from God, since Jesus died for thee.”  Augustus Toplady

[copyright, 2010, Emily Schankweiler; A Sacrifice of Praise]

2 thoughts on “Do Not Hide From God”

  1. Adam and Eve KNEW God. They had spoken with Him, walked with Him. And they STILL turned away from Him.

    I got saved young and was told to blindly obey my parents and all authortity. My parents and siblings are genetic psychopaths. Not criminals according to the world’s standards but the checklist written in 2 Tim 3:1-5 aptly describes them. By the way, this is nothing more than a birth defect (psychopathy) and can be seen on an MRI set up to check for this (see video on Youtube titled “I, Psychopath”).I’ve been extremely abused all of my life for this blind obeying. We do NOT help anyone by berating them after they’ve been abused by others, by telling them that they are now sinning against God.

    God finally introduced himself to me decades after saving me. I wish that he’d never done this. I am now aware of the depths of rape done to my soul and that God still leaves me here, makes it that much worse.

    I want to trade my salvation for freedom from rape. I want to be free of the truth of the Lord and be left alone by Him and by Satan. To so clearly see His truth through His word and to have no one to share it with. The depths of His word. To be tritely told to pray harder, work harder, do more. This is all a huge lie.

    If I had just been given a “honeymoon” with the Lord when I was saved at Good News Club. A time to fellowship with Him and to learn to love Him because someone had pointed out some sweet scripture. But no. I was treated as so many are when first saved. We are led to the Lord and then told to Work, Work, Work! Serve, Serve, Serve! Lead others RIGHT NOW! HURRY UP! DO MORE!

    There’s not one day of my life that was worth it now that I know the truth about evil. Not one day. I would trade all my “wisdom” for freedom from evil. Freedom from false guilt poured on me by people who are incapable of FEELING guilt. (MRI’s set up to check for psychopathy show that these people’s brains simply don’t process emotions such as love, empathy, gratefulness and guilt. THEY DO NOT FEEL GRATEFUL!) And just in case you don’t look this stuff up, people who’s brains function like this ALWAYS try to dominate/manipulate others and want to be worshipped. John 8:44 is another perfect Bible verse. JESUS HIMSELF told us what these people were. Did we think these type of people just disappeared?

    So I married one of these people and gave birth to more. All the while trying to serve and give and learn and grow in the Lord. But God said no more at one point in my life. After a lifetime of abuse and working and being raped. He also, through His word, showed me what I was because He lived in my heart and what these evil ones are. When I finally read Proverbs 31, I realized WHY I had been the way I was. GOD GAVE ME HIS HEART TO SERVE HIM AND BE A BLESSING TO MY FAMILY. But in the hands of one who has the brain functioning of a psychopath, my heart was used to harm me and worship himself.

    So please write an article telling those of us who no longer want to know and serve Jesus how to exchange our wisdom for cash. I want to be the most unwise person ever born and not have a lick of the wisdom poured on my head. I want a chance to erase all of the truth shown through His word. Or, I want ACKNOWLEDGEMENT by true Christians that evil is real, Satan is real and chruching it up or watering it down does not change it. That some things will never be “fixed” by humans because they were not meant to be. Pscyhopaths are BORN with their brains wired this way. God allowed this and although I don’t know all the reasons that He did, one thing that he HAS shown me is that they are the exact representation of the devil. There is NOTHING good in them. They only care about themselves and have nothing but contempt for others. The hierarchy is very important to a psychopath, just like in the demon relm where there are different levels. They are perpetually jockeying for postion (read “Lord Foulgrins Letters” by Randy Alcorn or “The Screwtape Letters” by C. S. Lewis).

    I don’t want to know any of this. If I have to stay a Christian, I want to be trite and worthless and spout stupid jargon like, “All children are a flower and smell great!” or “Smile and the world smiles with you!”. TEACH ME HOW TO BE TRITE!!!!!!!

    Oh, by the way, in case you have the incorrect impression that psychopaths are murderers or rapists, this is only the extreme end of the spectrum. The VAST marjority are everyday citizens who may be married with a seemingly normal life. But even if they never physically harm another, they are ALWAYS SOUL-DESTROYING to non-psychopaths. “Sanctuary for the abused” is a website that deals with some of the results or signs of an abuser. By the time we find these websites, we are often destroyed for life. Imagine if CHRISTIANS were the ones to finally help the world by explaining what psychopathy is, THROUGH GOD’S WORD?!

    So teach me how to hide from God or unlearn what I was forced to learn. My fervent prayer is to never have been thought of to be born or that God will let me go back in time and be aborted. This is what God has done to one of his children. I pray for death constantly.

    1. Sally my heart breaks for you! You are loved. I know it means nothing but I am sorry for the horrendous things done to you. I do pray for you and that Jesus can redeem the sins against you. I was molested as a child but Jesus has broken my heart and redeemed the sin. The grace and love he has given me is amazing and wonderful. It is hard and devastating but the rewards in HIM are greater than anything I can explain. It is not easy and life is full of sinners who will hurt us over and over only he can give us unending grace, joy, and love no one else. I am praying for you.

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